STRESS

WOW today, I just had a math unit test and a chemistry unit test.
It's raining outside and it feels gloomy and dark inside.
My eyes feels hot and watery.
Why you might ask?
Stress. That's why.
Stress because of my lack of self-control.
Stress because of my constant procrastination.

I might of shed a single drop of tear, for the failure of my chemistry test, but I was also relieved that it was over. Prior to today, I pulled an all nighter to study for math. The outcome was good, but it was at the expense of my chemistry mark. If I ever want to be a pharmacist, I need to get my chemistry mark up. I have 70s in both math and chemistry, things are looking bad.
I know what I must do. Block youtube, block facebook, block blogspot, and all the other websites I visit too often. Yes, it’s the only way. I can’t keep up with all my school work if I spend all my time online; wasting my time online.

I’m not here to say that’ll I’ll be gone forever, because that extremely hard for me to do. I plan on easing my way out, slowly; bit by bit. I’ve already taken action last week, but it seems like it wasn’t enough. I’ve downloaded an add-on for my firefox, which will allow me to set a time limit or when to block certain website. It’s currently set to block all my favourite websites from 4-6pm, then from 8-12pm from Monday to Thursday. That will give me enough time to enjoy myself after school, the a break from 6-8pm for me to rest from my homework. Hopefully this will work out fine.

Like I mention before, this blocking thing doesn’t seem to work yet, due to the fact that I thought I can rest during the weekend so I didn’t block anything at that time. Though it was a generous thought, I failed to consider my 2 unit tests on Monday and let my procrastination get the best of me. It seems I need a bit of adjusting to my blocking.
I will think of something later, because this week, is the last week of school before the winter break!

I think I will end it here. I don’t want to go into the sad events that are to come. Ending on a happy note is nicer for both you and I. I’ll continue this some other time though, when I want to vent publicly on my blog that no one reads :)

A picture taken on the night of my semi formal dance. I caked the makeup on :)