It's raining outside and it feels gloomy and dark inside.
My eyes feels hot and watery.
Why you might ask?
Stress. That's why.
Stress because of my lack of self-control.
Stress because of my constant procrastination.
I might of shed a single drop of tear, for the failure of my chemistry test, but I was also relieved that it was over. Prior to today, I pulled an all nighter to study for math. The outcome was good, but it was at the expense of my chemistry mark. If I ever want to be a pharmacist, I need to get my chemistry mark up. I have 70s in both math and chemistry, things are looking bad.
I know what I must do. Block youtube, block facebook, block blogspot, and all the other websites I visit too often. Yes, it’s the only way. I can’t keep up with all my school work if I spend all my time online; wasting my time online.
I’m not here to say that’ll I’ll be gone forever, because that extremely hard for me to do. I plan on easing my way out, slowly; bit by bit. I’ve already taken action last week, but it seems like it wasn’t enough. I’ve downloaded an add-on for my firefox, which will allow me to set a time limit or when to block certain website. It’s currently set to block all my favourite websites from 4-6pm, then from 8-12pm from Monday to Thursday. That will give me enough time to enjoy myself after school, the a break from 6-8pm for me to rest from my homework. Hopefully this will work out fine.
Like I mention before, this blocking thing doesn’t seem to work yet, due to the fact that I thought I can rest during the weekend so I didn’t block anything at that time. Though it was a generous thought, I failed to consider my 2 unit tests on Monday and let my procrastination get the best of me. It seems I need a bit of adjusting to my blocking.
I will think of something later, because this week, is the last week of school before the winter break!
I think I will end it here. I don’t want to go into the sad events that are to come. Ending on a happy note is nicer for both you and I. I’ll continue this some other time though, when I want to vent publicly on my blog that no one reads :)
A picture taken on the night of my semi formal dance. I caked the makeup on :)
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